I was bummed for a lil while. Went to get my dad's old record player and realized it's broken. I was lookin for some inspiration and was hoping it and his Earth Wind and Fire records would boost my spirits. I know I coud listen to the CD but I long for the crackling sound it makes...

I've noticed lately that I haven't been as focused as I was before I moved into my spot. Before I would go straight to the library or coffee shop and be on my laptop for hours. Even if I wasn't working on my book, my thoughts were still flowin and I was able to jot it all down. If you haven't notice I have a very eccentric mind which goes along with my eccentric personality. But now it just seems like a cloud or somethin... Almost like I'm forcing myself to write and that's not normal. I'm starting to think my thoughts are taking over my plan. Cause I'm not a writer. (see look right there, I started a sentence off with "cause") But I'm not. I just have these great ideas for a couple of books. The most personal one starts from the day I turned 25 and from that day on; my life changed. My eyes were more alert, people came in and out my life throughout that year and for the first time I understood why they were there and the message they left. I call them seed planters. But it also explains how long I was blinded. How long I went on with my life not questioning anything. a lot of pain. It's very personal. I keep asking myself is someone really going to enjoy a book that sounds like I'm writing in one of my journals? I don't know...

I know the solution. I know that I can do anything. I know the bible (and it's flaws) and the quran (a lil) both say that God is within. Which to means my dreams are limitless... But I'm lacking the drive I once had. There's so much I want to do with this life but it's not feeling like a reality yet.

Noisettes - Don't Give Up

I love them!

please, my knowledge runs deep!

The Move 9
I think the move organization is a great example of the saying "Knowledge is Infinite" or as Philly would say "my knowledge runs deep!" I recently came across this organization when I was doing research for political female prisoners for the organization I volunteer for. The amount of stress I've consumed after finding out about this is unexplainable. I'm constantly looking for more as if I'm not really believing what I'm reading. It seems that they were such a threat to police and government, just because of what they believed. Peep the documentary narrated by social activist Howard Zinn and if your interested in more info let me know and I'll get it to you. But you opinions are important, I'm curious if we're on the same page...?

Howard Zinn

ella's sad

I see you and have so many things to say
about how much I miss you and wished you
never strayed. how I smell you in the mornings
and dream of you in the evenings.
how I still get the tingle down my spine

But I see you and the only thing I can
mutter to say is.... why you leave me, or
never needed me! why wasn't my love
enough? even when I stayed when shit
got rough...

Then I see me and wonder
how did this happen, why because
he gave up on us I start questioning
my worth? Since when did me become
meaningless and he meaningful?
How did the guy the world knew
could never love me, consume me,
drain me, to the state that I'm
loosing me....

You look at me and say
how my eyes look tired
and I swear that just fueled
the fire! b/c if you looked close
enough you would see not shattered dreams
and loss of integrity but my moment
of clarity....damn

JANELLE MONAE = Violet Stars Happy Hunting!

Love me some Janelle Monae!

Gorillaz feat De La Soul-Feel Good,Inc.

oooohhhhhhhh!!!!!!

Windmill, windmill for the land
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is ticking falling down...
Love forever Love is free
Lets turn forever you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land-
Is everybody in?